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Goodbye My Lover

Published May 27, 2013 by carlyjellis

You would think that I don’t care but I do

You would think that I wouldn’t shed a tear but I have

You would think that I wouldn’t miss you but I can’t stop thinking about you

You would think that I don’t love you but I always will…….

 

You held my heart in your hands

But you let it slip through your fingers like grains of sand

You were the one for me and this I know

Now I have no place to go

 

My heart aches for you but you cannot see

Just how much this is hurting me

You asked me to go so you could be free

But darling I wanted you to forever be with me

 

Now I must accept that you are gone

You will find somebody else in the long run

Just thinking of that kills me and hurts me so

It makes me feel incredibly low

 

But if you should ever find your way back to me

Back into my arms, well here I will be

Waiting for you until the end of time when

You could find it in your heart to love me like you did once again

 

I will love you forever in life and in death

I will be thinking of you with my very last breath

You were the light of my life and with you life made sense

Now life is merely an abyss of loneliness

 

You were my soul mate, my lover, my confidant, my friend

Now that has been lost my life as I know it comes to an end

Please don’t forget there’s somebody who will always love you

Somebody who wants you and who will be there to get you through

 

I know that this may never be and if that is so

Then there is nobody to blame but me

But I have no choice and will keep waiting until the day I die

Because I have nothing if I cannot say that you are mine

A New Beginning

Published May 27, 2013 by carlyjellis

The sun arises

A new day has begun

A new beginning of my life

No more regrets of what I could have done

 

I clearly see now what I am meant to do

How I can regain control and how I can pull through

Nothing will ever defeat me

No one will ever make me feel bad

I refuse to live the rest of my life

Feeling lonely, bitter and sad

 

I will become stronger and wiser

A new me has evolved

Risen from the ashes of past breakdowns

I no longer feel a prisoner, no longer alone

 

Yes a new beginning of my life has started

The first chapter is written and says

That whilst my past is always with me it will not dictate

The woman I have become now on from today

The Man Who Won’t Be Mine

Published May 19, 2013 by carlyjellis

Our eyes met across a crowded room

He smiled at me and instantly I knew

He walked towards me in a manner so sure

The closer he got I knew I wanted him more

 

We talked and we laughed

Until late into the night

He then held me and kissed me

It felt so right

 

We gave in to our desires

Our bodies entwined and souls set on fire

Our eyes locked together

We wished we could stay that way forever

 

The morning awoke us with a cruel flash of light

A reminder that we had loved and lost in that one night

And whilst I sit here alone, I know I’ll be fine

With the memory of love from the man who won’t be mine